if there’s one thing i wanna be, i wanna be the very best, like no one ever was. zomg hate bidding. ok actually i dont hate bidding but the fact that oasis is so inefficient is driving me nuts
HI HI HI
i am so fucked right now?!?!?!?! mentally, emotionally, ok not physically haha too bad. halloween was fucked, didnt really enjoy myself as much as i envisioned it to be. dressed up as a ninja – HOO HA HI – but i threw away my headgear and our elaborate plans to duel on the dancefloor failed.
ok looking a little fucked here cause i was pretty damn stoned.
*******
sigh i dont wanna lose myself. what is ‘myself’ anyway? i gather information from my friends and try to piece them together, thats how i form an idea of what kind of a person i am. sounds pretty damn sad but i have no fucking idea?!?!
BABY DONT WORRY YOU’LL BE MY ONLY EVEN IF THE SKY IS FALLING DOWN. THIS IS DA BOOMZ. dearie, just hit forward and ridin’ dirty comes on. aahhhhh miss the old days
what love is
im not a particular fan of romance but http://leloveimages.blogspot.com has been keeping me occupied these few days. real stories by real people. and what i absolutely love about this is that these stories sound fantastical, yet (the best part is) this is also reality. i find myself relating to many of these stories and this part is my current fav (cause its so damn cute touching) :
“When you meet with that special person the first time, you know nothing about each other
Nothing at all.
And despite all the rationality something just happen.
You want to spend hours with that person, you want to just listen to what he/she says – even if it would be a big pile of rubbish if it’d come out from somebody else’s mouth. He/she makes you laugh like no others. You can be the strongest, most confident person in the whole wide World, but you just can’t stop those shaky legs, don’t seem to be able to put one sensible sentence together – nor stop talking because you are too worried it will get awkward and weird. At the end of the night of your first date you wish time would stop there and then at that perfect moment – when only the two of you exist in the Universe – would never end. You’ve just said goodbye 5 minutes ago but you already feel like you have many new stories to tell him/her.
You can’t sleep because all you can think of how great you felt with that person and you are trying to figure how can it be so easy and smooth. You get changed several times before the next date because you want to make sure you look your best and he/she just won’t be able to take his/her eyes off you. And then all of a sudden this person becomes part of your every moment in the day. You can’t focus at work, keep recalling those perfect nights together, call in sick because you want to stay in bed with him/her as long as possible, you are so proud of this person in your life that you want to introduce him/her to everyone from the local postman to you best friends and your family, and this is the person who is the reason why you cancel dinner with your best friend… And then.. You realize that so much time gone past and that person is still there. And you became one very special and unique thing together that you never want to lose. Hopefully it lasts for a while.”
&
“The love I am referring to is the love you have for a best friend. It’s unique and so important to have. It’s more than just affection for someone; it’s a deep underlying connection. The comfort of knowing you can tell them everything, and not have worry about being judged. The first person you tell when something exciting happens, or when something scary happens. The person you turn to when you need to vent. The person you can laugh at because they will just laugh back at you. The person you need to tell things to so your brain doesn’t explode. The person who can make you feel better when you’re having a tough day, the one you turn to for advice. . The person you can have full conversations with by merely exchanging glances. And maybe most importantly, the one you tell all your secrets to, especially boy secrets”
